Monday, January 15, 2007

The Final Comedown

This is probably the final entry here.

This blog has recorded a short period in time. It has tried to describe as honestly as I can the experience of being a parent of a child with cancer. For better or worse, it defines my life. And I'm sure that I don't always come across as a particularly pleasant or consistent person and probably not even a very good father/husband. But there you go.

It wasn't written for anyone. A vomit in a void. If it was read by people who've never met me. Fine. It was never about saying anything to those who know me. As more people who know me know of it, the more what it says becomes more difficult to write without becoming compromised. So, it's time to stop writing here.

"But nothing in Heaven or Earth
prepared me for this,


Blogger Thomas, as told to Sarah said...

Sad to see you go, but can relate a litte. I have definitely write a lot less personally as time has gone on at our blog.

Very, very, very good thoughts to all of you.

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Blogger gigi said...

i only read for a short time, but was really touched by your honesty and courage. much love to you and your family. i really will hold you in my thoughts.

11:17 PM  
Blogger Mrs. Bick said...

Thank you for honestly and elegantly sharing your life-changing experience with your dear son. It has been enlightening and helpful for me as I learn more through you as to how it is for my nephew and his family during their cancer journey.

I will miss reading about little C-tels ups and downs and I will always wonder about him, and you as you continue your life outside of this blog. Our thoughts and prayers will continue for you all. God Bless.

Shelia Bickle,
Wife to Jason
Mother to Duncan, Madeline & Sullivan
Aunt to Thomas Bickle

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Blogger lifeboatjohn said...

Reading this as a father of 2 I feel humbled by your experiences. Words escape me but you will all be in my prayers. God bless.


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Blogger sarah's_mom said...

It has been almost a year since our Thomas was diagnosed. A very, very, very long, exhausting year. Your blog, for me, helped me to see/understand what my daughter and her husband have been going through, as i only see from one point of view. i will endeavor to keep your precious family lifted up in my thoughts and prayers.
sarah's_mom (a/k/a thomas's grandma)

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Blogger James Macpherson said...


I came across your blog after you left a message on mine just recently. In the message you left, you wondered aloud why God let your son contract cancer.

I wondered if I could post you a book by a good friend of mine who recently lost his son to cancer.

My friend is one of Australia's most renowned Christian ministers. Everyone, including him, wondered how God could allow it to happen.

The book is a very honest account of how they dealt with their son's illness and loss and how they have reconciled that with the love of God.

The book is called "Where's the Miracle?". I am sure it would be a great encouragement to you.

If you email me your postal address, I'll send you a copy.

Kind Regards,


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Blogger James Macpherson said...

Sorry ... my email is

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I listened to it. and I am not sure if it is the best, but Id say it is really awesome. I just found it on hype.

whats the status on your child now?

10:42 AM  
Blogger Mrs. Bick said...

I just realized I never wrote back to you about your questions on my Transforming Grace blog.

Why so long between entries? Life. I have gotten sidetracked.

How do you distinguish "b" and "p"? Tough. Too lengthy to go into here, but drop me an email, and we can chat.

Hope you all are hanging in there. Think of you all often, pray for you all, too. Miss reading your blog, but understand.


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Nice Blog :)

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